(2/2) together. One person should not be able to upset the apple cart.

(1/2) I don't believe in family drama at any time, but on Christmas Eve it is totally unacceptable. I look forward to Christmas Eve because the whole family is

(2/2) ant a record of it? My childhood was painful. My teen years were fucked up. Gotta think this over. At least they can be happy they weren't me.

(1/2) Trying to figure out why I can't get my book filled out. I have to tell about my childhood/life so there will be a record for my family. God do I really w

Okay. I am going to make a prioritized list so I get done what I need to get done. Why can't I get that memories book finished? Memories too painful?

Time to get ready for the holidays. Wow! Looking forward to seeing John Ondrasik in concert soon and Rock of Ages in December. Bring it on!

Changing Seasons

The prevailing thread of "Are we there yet?" will probably never be answered, because while I'm alive we'll never be there.

As the seasons change and we get ready for another holiday season, I look forward even farther to Bunky retiring, and sooner than that, Mike and his family moving out of state. Life is constant change, and you have to go with the flow, or quit. Quitting doesn't sound like a viable option.

It seems like with each new season, I make resolutions of what I will get done, what I plan to accomplish, and sometimes it happens, sometimes it doesn't. The thing of it is, as long as I'm happy and satisfied, it doesn't matter about what I accomplish.

I waste a lot of time, but as far as I'm concerned, no matter what you are doing, if you enjoy it it isn't a waste of time. I can't see any reason to use my time doing things I don't want to do as life is not unlimited. It ends. I will not be on my death bed saying, "Wow, sure wish I'd done those dishes." I hope when the time comes, I will be looking back at the fun I had with my family with no regrets.

Changes will be abundant this year: Michael and Tisha moving will be devastating for me but I know I can handle it and it will be best for them. Bunky retiring will be more difficult. That's something you can never be sure about until it happens. I'm even thinking about maybe getting a tiny part time job. But then, I have to think about that, because there is that death bed thing. . . .